My life, my future

Monday, June 15, 2009

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Not really in the mood to blog. Dunno why also. I've been feeling so down for the past few days.
Things have not been going my way. So yea. How I wished things were much better lyk the past...

But nvm. I believe that the day will come one day. all I need now is patience. Nothing more than patience.
Woke up at ard 9a.m tdy cos the previous night din't sleep well. Studied a while before heading to the library.
Went home at ard 1, lunched and then studied again. Studied fr abt 2~3 hours before heading out of the house again.

This time went to suntec instead. Went to get Hillsong United album. The songs are quite nice thou that's why i bought the album. Have decided to change my home church but shall not say it here yet...

Misery fills my heart
I dunno why
but the feeling is always there
I juz can't get rid of it

If only you cld be here nw
then I wouldn't need to suffer
I maybe wrong abt you
but I will change

I wished you were here nw
then perhaps I can explain
but you seem to have drifted away
away to somewhere afar

So please come bk
come bk to where you belong
so that I can see you again
and explain what I want to say...

[Praise the Lord]*|Monday, June 15, 2009|

Sunday, June 14, 2009

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Finally, I'm 16 years old. It feels great being 16 as you can get more freedom and do the things that you always wanted to do.(:

Woke up at ard 8.45. Showered and had breakfast before going out. Wanted to go to the PC show cos tdy is the last day. Surely got alot of discount. But then decided not to go cos not in the mood to go. Went to amk hub instead to get smth.

Reached home at ard noon. Had lunch before I started studying. No more time to watch TV or play soccer anymore. 'N' levels are coming, cannot always think of playing. From tdy onwards, am going to make sure that I mug every day till the end of my 'N' level paper. I'm already so back behind time.really.seriously.

Hope you see the email that I sent to you, Adora. I really want to be friends with you like the past when you would talk to me. I dun want to see you always ignoring me, treating me like I do not exist...

Sadness fills my heart whenever I see you
I know that I've got do to smth bout it
I cannot juz sit and wait fr miracles to happen
although I believe in miracles.

If only you could understand how I feel
then maybe you would noe what's wrong
I may have committed a sin
but I'm most willing to learn from it

If only you could give me a chance once more
I promise that I wouldn't hurt you anymore
It hurts to always see you so sad and listless
that sometimes I feel lyk crying my heart out.

So please forgive me, adora
and let us be friends again.

[Praise the Lord]*|Sunday, June 14, 2009|

Friday, June 12, 2009

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Had nothing to do so decided to create a blog. Will get a blogskin soon but problem is, don't know how to change.wtf. But will try to learn.

Anyway, this is my first post and also the first time i'm blogging. Woke up at around 7.30a.m tdy although there wasn't school. Guess i'm too used to getting up early. Showered and had breakfast before going out to settle some things.

Saw Ms Sherrie Ng juz now while on the way to yio chu kang. Heard that she's getting married soon so i'm happy for her. If only she could be my geography teacher...nvm Mrs Audrey Koh is also quite a good teacher. Anyway, went out for 3 solid hours and by the time i reached home, my legs were like jelly ):

Tmr is my Bday but i don't plan to celebrate cos i've got a lot of things to settle tmr. my main focus now is to study real real hard for 'N' lvls. i was so sad when i saw my mid-year results therefore i told myself that with sheer hardwork and determination, nothing is impossible.

thanks mdm Su for your mativational talk. i will definely work hard to achieve what i want and that is, to get to sec 5 and to win Adora's heart.

i know it's going to be a tall order but like i said before, with sheer hardwork and determination, nothing is impossible. although the diamond necklace for Adora was somehow rejected, i'm not going to give up juz like that. I will keep trying and trying till i win your heart, Adora.

Adora, i'm going to prove to you that i really love you...Nobody can replace you in my heart. you're the one and only one that i will love forever...

[Praise the Lord]*|Friday, June 12, 2009|