Benedict's

2010-04-20T21:12:00.002+08:00

Went to school today after skipping school on Monday. Had SS lesson in theatrette before PE. Used to love PE in the past but don't know why these few weeks I've been hating PE or having no interest in it.

Maybe it's because of NAPFA or the tedious 2.4km run. Luckily all those who passed 2.4 the previous week need to run. Chose not to be a pacer as I did not feel like running. Played soccer in the field instead.

It was hilarious I swear. Couldn't stop laughing at those people who slip due to the slippery field..HAHAHA. Got abit muddy and headed back to class after recess.

English lesson was okay and then followed by F&N. Attended bridging after sch which ended at 1430. Upper sec boys had to leave for NAPFA test.

Talking about NAPFA test, it's a serious waste of effort for me. Thought that with a timing of 12:49, I could at least get a C grade for 2.4km. But when i went to check the table, realised that I only managed a D -.- and the criteria for getting a gold is C for all 6 stations with a minimum of 21 points. So, gold is all but over for me.

Did well for sit-ups, managing a personal best of 47 :D, standing broad jump was at 226. One of my highest if I'm not wrong. Shuttle run was at 10.2 secs. Argh, just 0.1 second lesser to get an A. But whatever. Since I already knew my hopes for gold are already gone..pull ups was suckish. Only managed 2 -.-

Could do at least 5 during the pre test. Perhaps it's because I didn't eat anything since morning that's why I clould only do 2 in the end. Sit and reach only got 36..zzz...I think my sit and reach is always somewhere around there. I don't remember myself getting above 40...lol.

So, in total I got about 17 points if I'm not wrong. Enough for me to qualify for a silver. But guess what? I think I'm going to get a bronze all because of the pull-ups. Damn pull-ups man, seriously-.- and to add salt to the wound, the teacher in charge of pull-ups is so fucked up..__

Soccer again after NAPFA. This time, it was me who slipped and got half of my PE shorts covered in mud. Not only that. Even my whole shoes were covered with mud. And the thing is, I've only got a pair of school shoes. Doubt my shoes can dry by tonight. Have to think of other alternatives then. Ok, I'm dead beat. Bye.

2010-02-09T20:56:00.002+08:00

Valentine's Day is coming in abt 5 days time. Gotten gifts ready already. Will be giving on the 12th of February.

I guess this week's going to be a fun week because we're having our steamboat this Thursday and not after Chinese New Year^^. Then, on friday......

There's always homework on almost every single day...-.- guess must try and adapt to it. O levels aren't going to be as easy as N levels.

When there's a will, there's a way!

Miss you...

2010-01-26T19:03:00.002+08:00

Life during N levels compared to now O levels is totally different. O level is twice as difficult as N level which also means homework are douled...:O

4th week of school already and homework are coming in like as though we're only left with 1 month to O levels. Nvm, I believe i'm able to handle all the stress and everything.

Should I continue......?
Yeah I think I should...

2010-01-13T20:52:00.002+08:00

10 days ago since i lasted updated..well, tdy is a day where i'll nvr forget. It's the best day of my secondary sch life ever..

Nvr expected things to turn out like that..brought Adora's present into the hall during morning assembly and everyone started asking how much i bought it for and when i was going to give her..etc.

Started the day with 2 lessons of maths followed by 2 lessons of English..surprisingly, both maths and english also asked abt the present..

Headed down to the canteen with Adora's present as i was told by Wan Ling that they were going to celebrate her b/d there..

Gave her the present as was quite surprised that she accepted it...stayed a while before heading bk to class as lessons resume..alright, i've got tons of h/w to do..and they're due by tmr..

Hope you like the present, Adora. Love you always

2010-01-03T00:01:00.004+08:00

My blog sure looks dead..it has been about 1 month and 5 days since i last blogged..:O

I just realised how fast time flies these days. 2009 is officially over and it's the beginning of a new decade. Somehow i just felt that if only time could pass a bit slower.

School's starting in about 2 days time and that is when i should get my study mood back. As for now, trying to enjoy as much as i can :D

Spent the whole day with aunt today as she is leaving for Shanghai and won't be back until about a month later. Went to AMK Hub before heading to Changi Airport to bid her farewell.

Bus-ed home and reached at about 10.30pm..

I just want you to know
that you're the special one
among others...

2009-11-29T22:56:00.002+08:00

Went for first service today..first time attending first service..lols..woke at at abt 7.30am and i thought i was going to be late..

Thank God i reached suntec at 8.30am O_O pretty fast eh? cos i skipped breakfast..called keegen on the way to see if he was also going first but apparently, he didn't answer my calls and i called him for about 4 times-.-

called justin too and he said he was on his way..took the train and upon reaching, thought that Justin would still be far away..but when he told me he was already there i somehow cldn't believe it..

Asked him whether he took mrt anot..and he said he took a cab-.- no wonder he cld reach earlier than me..met him outside Eng Wah before going in. Saw Matt and Isaac on the way to meet Justin :D

Sherrie came soon after followed by Joey..well, service ended quite early though..or is it the time that passed quickly? hahah..anyways, enjoyed the service :D

Decided to have lunch in subway after service since it was still rather early..Isaac went home i think and Matthew went to queue for tickets for those attending the third service..followed Justin to draw some money while the girls headed to subway first.

Headed back to subway where the girls were after Justin finshed drawing out some money and we placed our orders..had a nice time talking to Justin and the rest of the girls..left subway at abt 12.30pm i think together with Sherrie, Wan Ying and Joey.

Walked to the mrt station and we talked along the way..seperated ways with them as they were not taking the same train as me..reached home at abt 1.30pm..

2009-11-28T22:51:00.003+08:00

Radical outing yestd was AWESOMEE!! :D hahahs...reached Jurong East MRT at abt 1.20pm and saw Sherrie, coach Mel and a few girls whom i've yet to know..:X

Waited for the rest to come..Justin, Matt and Wan Ying came earlier so they went opposite the mrt to have their lunch i think..idk where they went to also.

Walked to the bus interchange after everyone had arrived and surprisingly, there were more girls than guys who turned up..took 335 to Justin's place.

Reached there at abt 2pm i think?..and some ppl haven't had their lunch yet so they bought frm downstairs..went up to justin's house which is on the 8th floor

As there were too many ppl and not all cld enter the lift, Justin & I took the stairs..there were abt 15 of us i think..we let the girls take the lift instead..and we managed to reach the 8th floor FIRST..lols

Had lunch in Justin's house before sharing..well, i wasn't there..:X

Ordered pizza for dinner and we had fellowship..talked for awhile before packing up and getting ready to leave Justin's place..finally left at abt 9.15pm and headed to bus stop. Took 335 bk to interchange and took the mrt bk. Reached home at abt 10.20pm..bathed, online...and slept..

& i want you to know that

you're the only one..

2009-11-26T19:50:00.002+08:00

SITEX 2009 has begun!! hahahs...most probably going during the weekends. :D going there together with parents, dad says he wants to look for a new camera and i can't wait to buy Windows 7..woots!

Radical outing tmr! but im still deciding whether to go anot cos it's at Justin's house and Justin lives in Jurong._.
Was actually supposed to be at ETP(Escape Theme Park) but then somehow they just cancelled it in the last minute..

Then, DARE lvl 4 outing the next day..hahas..two outings consecutively :D Also not sure if i want to go for the lvl outing..It's at ECP..but it sounds kinda fun.

Oh well, can't wait for weekends to come..:D

2009-11-22T22:39:00.008+08:00

Though you might still not know me well enough and I have also not known you well enough yet, i believe we'll slowly get to know each other better...

your disapearance just makes me worried...every minute and every second, i just can't help it but think of you being in danger..

Please tell me you're alright..fr i'm praying fr your safety in the hands of God whom i trust...Amen.

2009-11-20T00:28:00.003+08:00

Time flies...srsly...it's less than a month left before we collect our results. Hope tht i do get good results.

Went to work as usual tdy..with like tons of things to do when i was there. I'm so sick and tired of numbers already but the irony is I love this job..

ok...it's already near 1am and im still not asleep..-.-

guess love at first sight is kinda good huh? heh....nights all...

2009-11-18T23:25:00.002+08:00

Didn't go to work tdy as i wasn't feeling too good. Took leave and rested at home till the afternoon when i was slightly better.

Went out at abt 1 to AMK Hub to catch 2012..heard tht the movie is doing well all over the world :D. Bought the ticket first before heading to central to have lunch..

Headed straight back to Hub after lunch to catch the movie. AWESOME movie i must say, the director is really good with the pictures and sound effects.

Kinda cold in the theatre and i didn't bring a jacket along so it was chilling cold while inside fr nearly 3 hours. Adding to the fact tht it was raining outside which made it even colder..

But still, i find the show very worthy to watch :D Bk to work tmr..sianz....working life seems kinda boring. Morning go work till abt evening then head home have dinner, use computer and slp tht's all..

And i'm doing accounting...-.-

2009-11-05T23:25:00.002+08:00

Weather was awesome the whole day. It rained since afternoon till abt near evening. Took leave tdy as bcos I was feeling damn tired.

Went to Toa Payoh after work yestd fr awhile then headed to aranda chalet fr class BBQ.Only a few ppl attended it thou. Had BBQ which i somehow didn't eat anything :X

Talked to Jueyin at the BBQ pit fr awhile before she brought me up to see the room. The room was rather big though it had only two rooms but at least there was TV :)

Played a few rounds of cards before going down to the BBQ pit again. It rained soon after so had to stop the BBQ somehow. Jueyin asked me to stay over but bcos of work the next day, i had to leave. Left at abt 9.30 with a few ppl. Headed to BK to grab smth to eat before taking Bus88 at Pasir Ris interchange.

Homed at ard 11.15pm. Bathed then slp. It's 12am nw. Gonna slp soon fr work tmr. Accounting seem to be rather easy somehow^^

2009-10-30T00:27:00.002+08:00

Damn. My blog seemed so dead. Haven't had the time to update due to work issues. Just a quick one will do perhaps.

Class gathering on 3rd November!! Kinda of last minute notice but nvm. At least it was smth tht I didn't expect and it happened!:D

Still not sure if I'm able to make it. I really want to go fr the class gathering. I don't mind not staying overnight but at least go fr the BBQ. C'mon God, please make me able to attend the BBQ. Amen.

2009-10-18T00:46:00.003+08:00

The feeling's so overwhelming but yet the resistance so great. I don't know whether if I shld continue like this..somehow i wished things weren't as complicated as this.

The thoughts in my mind are running wild...i've let go but cant learn to forget...

2009-10-13T10:38:00.002+08:00

Holidays have started fr us and everybody is desperately looking fr jobs to earn some money as well as killing some time. While Im happy tht I've finally got freedom, smth is apparently making me damn irritated.

Thing is, when freedom comes, boredom comes too. This happens to those who have nth to do at all. And Boredom srsly sucks. Nw Im craving fr smth which I usually don't.

Sch! At least I won't feel so bored in school. Guess the best way to kill off boredom is to go get a job which I am getting soon:)

Once I start working, guess I won't feel so bored already. Letting go was difficult enough, why does forgetting seemed twice as difficult?

2009-10-09T23:27:00.002+08:00

After so many months, N lvls have finally come to an end. Whoohooo. It's the moment I've been waiting fr. The best day of my secondary school life so far.

The feeling of being released frm books and worksheets and remedials etc is simply great. Imagine how much fun we can have now after studying fr like the past 10 months.

Freedom is finally here :D and it's also time to start work and earn some money to buy the things we always wanted. Can't wait to get the new iPod nano. It's only $228 fr the 8GB version which is $20 cheaper than the 4th generation.

if only I had waited....nvm. Haha nw my mind is thinking nth but work. May consider getting a phone soon. Damn, I feel so incomplete without a phone..

2009-10-04T22:32:00.003+08:00

After months of studying, next week is finally the real test. The test where either we make or break. It's a do-or-die situation. After next week, it's all but freedom.

Have been making full use of the 1 week break or rather self-study week. Chionging maths all the way. Went bk to sch everyday to clarify doubts and im quite confident nw^^

Cannot be too complacent else ltr last min. got mental block then die:X Didn't attend church service tdy but went out to study instead. Cant wait fr N lvls to be over. Once it's over, can start attending church again^^ Have not been going to church fr the past 4 weeks:X

Guess tht we're not destined to be together and since you've found your true love, maybe it's best to let go this time...but hopefully we can remain as friends...

Loving you frm 7th May 2009 till nw, 5th October 2009 is smth tht I'll always remember even when we're just friends...

2009-09-25T22:53:00.003+08:00

The day has finally come. The day when we graduate frm secondary school. The past four years in Mayflower really seemed to pass so quickly.

Throughout the four years, there were many memories. Memories which will be kept and not forgotten. The friends tht I've got to know at Mayflower will also be remembered always.

Well, we still have a chance to see each other again next year. All we have to do is to work hard fr our N lvls. Jiayous 4NA!

But the Lord has been my defense, and my God the rock of my refuge. Psalm 94:22

2009-09-22T20:30:00.002+08:00

Sch was kinda boring tdy but luckily there was work to do during the free lessons so I was quite occupied. This week is gonna be the last week of sch already.

After tht it wll be one week of self-study before N lvls resume. Geog seems to get easier to understand although there are lots of things to remb especially in rivers and coasts. Halfway thru rivers already, now left with coasts.

Cant wait fr N lvls to be over. Life after N lvls is surely gonna be good. Hardcore first, enjoy ltr.

Bless the Lord, you His angels, who excel in strength, who do His word, heeding the voice of His word. Psalm 103:20

2009-09-14T22:29:00.003+08:00

Nth much happened in sch tdy. Had only maths lesson the entire day then we had free periods till like the last two lessons.

Class was quiet as some ppl had to take O lvl emaths prelims in the hall. Goodluck fr those ppl taking the O lvl maths paper. I highly doubt it's going to be an easy one.

Whenever I see you smiling or being happy, I sometimes wonder if you're truly happy deep down in your heart or you're juz trying to hold back your emotions...

2009-09-11T20:58:00.003+08:00

N lvls language and SS papers are finally over. So relieved tht it's over. Will resume in abt three weeks time. Confident fr both languages paper xcept fr SS.

SBQ was pretty difficult as it came out as unseen. Wasn't even expecting tht. But Im happy tht deterrence came out fr SEQ. Alot of ppl did healthcare but I felt tht Deterrence was easier.

What's done is done. Nw juz have to wish tht I do well. Must concentrate on other subjects already.

Weather was cool the whole day but im not happy bcos whenever the weather is cold, my knee joint wld be so painful...wtf. Wondering if im suffering frm rhumetism. Juz realised tht tdy is the 8th anniversary of the 9/11 incident. May the ppl who died in the incident rest in peace...Amen.

2009-09-04T20:51:00.003+08:00

What seem like months soon became weeks and then nw it's days. Yes, im talking abt N levels which will commence next Monday.

Have been trying to put other things aside first and focus on N lvls. Freedom is juz 1 month away. C'mon, I MUST perservere. Well, have been working hard on SS these few days. Attending supplementary lessons sure helps.

Have been receiving tons of SS notes. I cn see tht mrs ess is keen on making everyone pass. I mean, who wouldn't want to do well fr SS?

Gonna revise Chinese and English also. Maybe juz a little but main focus is on SS. Having faith and trusting God is always the best solution to any problems fr He will make the best out of our mistakes.

We are blessed, because our trust is in Him Psalms 34:8
But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ 1 Corinthians 15:57

2009-09-03T22:08:00.000+08:00

Im starting to lose interest. Everytime I see you, I know tht I cannot simply juz ignore you. Smth has got to be done quickly...

Time used to pass quickly
but nw it seemed to have slowed down
I don't know why
neither do I want it

We're like strangers to one another nw
everytime when I see you,
You walked past me without saying a word
and I did the same thing back to you

I juz want you to know
tht I won't give up
you seem so different frm the rest
tht made me love you

Wherever I am,
Im always thinking of you
I juz can't seem to forget you
for you're the only one i want...

2009-08-31T23:59:00.001+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL TEACHERS!!

Your hardwork and dedication is really appreciated:D

Went to sch in the morning fr some celebrations. Kinda boring celebrations btw. Juz a few performances and tht's all. Ended sch at 10.30 and stayed on fr a little longer.

Went bk to aps alone. Saw a few of my pri sch friends and chatted fr awhile. Only can stay in the canteen and we weren't allowed to roam abt in sch. wth. Previously we cld roam all over the sch but ever since the change in principal, we are nw not allowed to do tht.Sickening-_-"

Well, time flies and ppl change. Some are still the same while others either become good or bad. But whatever it is, they're still friends. Friends whom I will always treasure. Friends don't come easy but they are easy to lose on the other hand.

Smth which I did not expect actually happened juz nw. I hope it's a beginning of the thing tht I wished fr...

2009-08-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

Service was great tdy :D Went fr the third service. Almost did not want to go due to the downpour but then the rain stopped on time:D

Grace. Tht was what tdy's service was all abt. If we have problems loving our relatives, let alone loving our enemies. We must learn how to love our enemies.

Grace is the gift of God's unmerited favor. It is demonstrated in God's forgiveness for our mistakes and disobedience of his directions for our lives. We receive grace when we place our faith in Jesus Christ. Grace is good news. It means we can't earn our way to heaven or work hard enough to make God love us more than he already does. All we have to do is accept the gift he freely offers----eternal life through faith in Christ. As Hebrews 13:9 says as encouragement to all believers, "Your heart should be strengthened by God's grace."

I dunno why but I suddenly dreamt of you finally talking to me last night. It seemed so real but then I realised tht it was actually juz a dream. I really wished tht it wasn't a dream. How I wished tht it was real.

When can I start to reconcile with you? Im dying to know the answer...

2009-08-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

Sudden urge to listen to Hillsongs. Haven't listened to their songs fr like maybe weeks already since the ZONE concert. :X

Miss hillsongs alot. When I listen to their songs, it somehow made me feel better. Feeling more and more stress as time flies faster.

Homeworks are starting to increase and tests are also inevitable in almost every lesson. Tdy's eng test was like very difficult and I didn't manage to finish it even thou we were allowed to skip summary :X My standard hv deproved and it's time fr me to buck up.

Spend geog lesson doing SS test which I find it easier than the previous one tht we had. Chinese was like a total waste of time as we practically did nth but luckily I spent the time doing phy and maths :D

Long weekend ahead but loads of homework to finish. Perserverance is the key word here.

2009-08-27T23:35:00.000+08:00

It rained again this morning. Wonder how long is this gonna continue. if im not wrong, it has been raining fr the past three days already.

And it always happen in the morning making the weather so chilling but somehow I appreciate it. When the weather is cooler, it's much easier and less uncomfortable to study.

Wasn't supposed to have PE tdy but somehow we ended up in the hall playing volleyball. Didn't really have the mood to play. Guess im too tired tht's why I wasn't even in the least interested.

English lessons are starting to get more intensive with homework every nw and then. Perhaps it's due to the upcoming 'N' lvl English examination in abt less than two weeks away. Two weeks isn't alot of time left. Soon it will be days and then finally hours before the start of the 'N' lvl English exams.

No September holidays fr us but nvm bcos I'd rather have lessons in sch rather than staying at home and do self-study. Having lessons in sch seem so much more effective:D

2009-08-26T23:25:00.001+08:00

If only you could...

My life seem to have totally changed. Frm the past to the present, it has been quite a ride fr me. There were many ups and downs during the process.

As the saying goes: "Life is full of ups and downs", mine seem to be like down all the time. In whatever I do, it always seemed to be wrong..

Although it's been a few months after what i've done, I still can remb it vividly as though it juz happened. I juz find it so hard to remove it out of my mind. I've nvr experience smth lyk this before. Trying to forget smth tht I've done was usually easy but this time round I can't seem to forget abt the past. Everytime I see you, those memories seem to flash bk into my mind.

Well, you may have put it aside but sometimes I wonder whether one wld be able to put aside such a thing so easily. Im not doubting you or whatsoever but I juz find it hard to totally forget abt the incident. The guilt, regret and remorse will always be in the inside of me...

2009-08-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

Weather was a bit chilling tdy. Rained since morning and I wasn't aware of tht till I woke up. Anyway, it's better than always sunny and making the classroom so hot and uncomfortable to study. Abit of rain occasionally will do good to us. :D

Didn't have practical lesson tdy. wth. To think tht I actually brought my stuffs and everyhting only to be told in the very last minute tht practical is postponed to tmr. Although I do not like practical as much as theory, I guess tmr is the last practical tht we're gonna have fr this year. So I think I'll just have to put up with it.

Physics test and geog supplementary tmr. Wonder how I did fr geog prelims. Have yet to know my results. Must get at least A2 fr F&N during 'N' lvls. But Im also aiming fr an A1 :)

Anyone has got geog notes can lend me to copy those blanks tht I've left out?

2009-08-24T23:43:00.003+08:00

If only I had known...

Im very confused, very confused. I didn't expect things to turn out this way. If only I knew tht this wld happen, I wouldn't have started in the first place.

The outcome tht I expected wasn't supposed to be like tht. I thought tht it would turn out fine but nvr did I expect it to take a worse. If I knew this wld happen, I'd rather go bk to the past when everthing was perfectly normal.

The situation nw and then are totally different. How I wished time cld travel backwards juz once.

It really wasn't smth tht I had expected. I was thinking abt all the good things tht will happen before I even approached you. But when I did, it actually did not happen.

How I wished I cld think of a solution right nw...to turn things ard.

2009-08-23T22:30:00.006+08:00

Muscle aches all over nw bcos of friday's match:( But it's not gonna affect me :D

Weather was awesome last night. Rained the whole night if im not wrong. Seldom rain during the night nowadays so im happy tht it finally did. Best to sleep when it's raining cos the weather is much cooler.

Wonder who's going bk fr teacher's day. Miss my pri school friends. But I doubt they'll be going bk bcos exams are ard the corner. Next week is teacher's day if im not wrong.

Didn't attend service tdy cos was feeling very tired. Promise myself to attend next week. It has been four weeks since I last attended service :X

Next week gonna be a busy week fr me. Loads of tests coming up but I like it cos I'll be able to see where I stand.Chem test, Physics test, etc. Hoping to do well in the upcoming tests :D

In the way of righteousness is life, and in its pathway there is no death. Proverbs 12:28

2009-08-21T23:00:00.001+08:00

Prelims result are back and I feel tht I suck at it. Totally suck I shld say. English went down frm A2 to B3. F&N also went down. Everthing seemed to be going down. wtf. Now tht prelims are over, it shows tht I have ONE last chance and tht's 'N' lvls

2 more weeks to English, Chinese and SS paper. Must start to hard core all the way liao. No time to slack already.
Given my standard, being able to go to sec 5 would make me happy enough. Chiong chiong chiong all the way~

Rained alomst the entire afternoon. Worst still, I forgot to bring my umbrella and by the time I got home was soaking wet. Bathed and had lunch before heading dwn to Bishan Active for a game of football. Missed my team so much. Haven't been with contact with them fr so long. Playing once in a blue moon shld be ok. Anyway, I haven't been playing football for like months so it's also a form of exercise to me. :D

Well, the match was initially postponed but then we decided to carry on so as not to make a wasted trip. We lost the match eventually. Can't blame us either cos we had shortage of players and the opposing team were just too good fr us.

Feel so tired after the match. Sleeping nw. Bye~

2009-08-20T23:45:00.001+08:00

Had P.E. tdy and fortunately we were given the chance to play soccer ( for the boys only). Haven't been playing soccer for like ages. Well, enjoyed the game very much although I fell down a few times. All this is part and parcel of soccer. When you play any form of sports, be it soccer or basketball, you must be ready for any injuries tht might befall on you.

Got a B3 for English. T.T was expecting to get a minimum of A2. Argh..deproved. Juz needed three more marks to get an A2. Well, no point crying over spilled milk. Best is to focus nw on getting A2 for English.

For with God nothing will be impossible Luke 1:37

2009-08-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

Blogger is so damn damn irritating. zzz!! Everytime want to blog sure got problems one. Only at ard this timing then blogging seem possible.

At other times, it's near impossible to blog.wtf. Didn't go out for the entire day tdy(: Stayed at home for revesion instead. This is gonna continue until 9th October. The day when I can truly relax and maybe put my mind at ease.

Didn't attend service also. But will most probably be going next week. Really miss not gg to service. It has been three weeks since I last attended service. T.T

Sometimes I wonder whether doing smth tht will most likely not work is good or not. Certain things only come naturally. Thr's no way to change it no matter how you want it to be. Well, I seem to be doing smth tht only nature can tell. It seems tht im not letting nature take its course but rather im trying to do smth by myself when im supposed to let it come naturally. Get it?

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Resist him, steadfast in the faith... 1 Peter 5:8~9

2009-08-15T00:41:00.002+08:00

It's late but I don't feel like sleeping. Perhaps I've slept too much? Well, prelims are over but tht doesn't mean tht I can start slacking.

There's still one last hurdle and tht is 'N' lvls. Only after 'N' lvls then can relax. For nw, it's nth but to chiong all the way. Guess im not going to fare well in my prelims. T.T

Screwed up for like so many papers. Luckily it's just prelims. I have juz one last chance..

Put on the whole armour of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. Ephesians 6:11

2009-08-12T23:56:00.003+08:00

Community Shield is ours!!! haha. Nvr expected Chelsea to win the community shield on penalties. Thought they were weak when in came to penalties but somehow they just overcame it(: They may have won the community shield but I think there was also a lack of sportsmanship in the team.

Physics and F&N prelims tdy. A bit of confidence for both papers especially F&N bcos the F&N prelim paper was much easier than the Mid-year paper.

Quite confident tht I will do better than Mid-year. As for physics, shld be also able to score better than mid-year. A relieve tht prelims is harder so tht means 'N' lvls will be slightly easier. But must not be complacent. Still must study even if it's easier.

Christ has redeemed us from the curse of the law, having become a curse for us (for it is written, "Cursed is everyone who hangs on a tree"), Galatians 3:13

2009-08-09T23:55:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging for the past few days as i was busy preparing for prelims. Arghhh...stress, stress. Prelims continue frm next week till friday and im busy trying to study both geog and math. Which isn't tht easy thou..

Headache is bringing me down and making me unable to study for the past two days. Damn headache, please go off so tht I can study for prelims...

I pray tht i'll be healed, Amen.

For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. Hebrews 4:15

2009-08-03T23:34:00.001+08:00

Received SS paper back tdy. Sadly, I failed the paper but not too badly thou. There's still hope for me to pass my comb. Humanities bcos geog paper is not over yet.

I must do well for geog nw since I failed my SS. If only I wrote more on SEQ then maybe I would have passed...but no point brooding over what's done. Main motive is to nw study geog and do well.

Heard tht I did quite badly for chinese paper 2. Failed by 6 marks T.T but nvm. I believe I still have the chance to pass my Chinese overall. Now left with English Paper. Really hope tht I do well..

2009-08-02T00:38:00.002+08:00

It's 12.42am and im still not sleeping. can't sleep either too..couldn't attend FOP bcos of some other things. But nvm, cos it's nth much actually..

Will not be attending church service later in the day cos have to go to some other places. Well, it's less than 10 days to prelims and im abit or rather quite worried bcos after prelims will be the real 'N' level.

'N' lvl is abt a months time and there is not much time left.. after prelims there is no more second chance. It's either you make it or break it..So must really do well for prelims as tht will determine how I fare for 'N' levels.

Luckily prelims is harder than 'N's so tht at least I will be mentally prepared..when the time comes.

I do not wish to lose you
but I know tht winning you is also not easy
trust is the key factor here
and hopefully i can built it

For what i've done,
it's too late to change it
therefore i can only wait
for you to put it aside

it's gonna be a difficult job
to win you and show you the trust
but i hope tht as time passes,
you'll see how much you mean to me

you may not realise it now
but i just want you to know
tht you're the only one i want
whatever it is, i'd still only want you...

...God was in Christ reconciling the world Himself, not imputing their trespasses to them... 2 Corinthians 5:19

2009-07-30T16:46:00.000+08:00

Time flew sooo fast tdy!!! (: Normally time would past slowly and i would dread the long day but it seemed tht time passed extremely fast tdy.

Had chinese oral tdy and it went smoothly!(: i didn't really encounter any problems with the passage reading although the conversation part was a bit messed up. Used the word "then" twice :X

But hopefully i would still be able to get high marks. Quite confident after the oral tht i would do well:D. Aiming to pass chinese for 'N' lvl cos I know my comb. humanities would be a bit difficult. But nevertheless, i will still work hard to try and pass all subjects. Target points for 'N' lvls=15.

Guessed tht it must be God's favour tht helped me to go through the oral smoothly. Was praying before the oral as i was abit nervous and i think He answered my prayers:D Praise the Lord!! Amen.

Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the perilous pestilence Psalm 91:3

2009-07-29T15:55:00.019+08:00

End of prelims fr this week but resuming on the 11th of August which is abt 2 weeks time. Screwed up my SS prelims tdy on SEQ. Yestd i studied conflict in Sri Lanka but tdy i did healthcare in britain instead. OMG :X.

i've no idea why either but it's too late to regret now. Now i'll have to score higher for geog in order for me to pass comb. humanities. SBQ was relatively easy and i wrote quite a lot :D but thinking of the SEQ really made me damn worried):

Heard alot of ppl did sri lanka. they said tht it was easier. if i had known...wth. what's done is done. No point thinking bout it. So now best is to focus on other subjects. Tmr's chinese 'N' lvl oral and i hope i wouldn't scew up. Going to revise chem tonight:D

God gave us food bcos He doesn't want us to suffer from starvation. He loves us alot. By just looking at the ppl frm Africa suffering frm starvation really pains my heart. If one day im asked to go to a Third world country to help the ppl there, be it improving their infrastructure or providing them with food, i wouldn't mind.

Now i know how blessed we are to be able to have access to food readily unlike the ppl in Africa. It teaches me tht we are just so fortunate here but sadly, some ppl are wasting food bcos they just don't know the situation in Africa or they are taking things for granted. If only the foods tht are wasted can be converted to fresh foods for the Africans, im sure the ppl there would surely be happy.

Food is like money to some Africans. They would rather work for food than for money bcos it's something tht they do not get enough each day. Tht's why some Africans are now being paid food and not money when they work like improving their country's infrastructure. It's simply killing two birds with one stone bcos when they work, they improve the country's infrastructure. At the same time, they get food in return. The children in Africa are really pitiful as they are really in a bad state of malnutrition. If only God could bless Africa and let them have a steady supply of food so tht the children need not suffer frm so much pain and hunger. Imagine 16,000 children dying frm malnutrition everyday. Tht's really really alot.

How i wished God could bless Africa with food now to prevent more and more children frm dying of starvation. The grief tht their parents have to go thru when their children die frm starvation is really too much for some to bear. Just looking at their own children dying is really a painful sight. Something that noboby wants. Since the Africans living in Africa are craving for food so desperately, why not give it to them and let them enjoy life? Rather than make them suffer frm hunger and malnutrition and not let them able to enjoy life.

Africans are praying for food every second and every minute. While we are enjoying life here, having a ready access to food anytime, the Africans are suffering frm hunger and starvation. Even right now, a child could have died due to starvation. My only wish now is for God to bless Africa so tht the children there can live happily and free frm hunger forever.

May Africa be blessed with abundance of food tht will keep them free of starvation forever. Amen.

2009-07-27T20:15:00.003+08:00

Prelims were alright tdy. Managed to finish both papers on time. Something which I normally had difficulty in. Reached home immediately after prelims as I was super tired. Slept at abt 12.40am last night.

Wanted to head dwn to admiralty for study session tgt with RADICAL but then decided not to as i needed some rest. shall go tmr then to make up for the loss. SS is on wed and im still quite worried for the paper.

tmr's is engilsh and chinese paper 2 and i think im not going to face any probs.

Sometimes i wonder to myself if i ever still had feelings for you. The feelings seem to be slowly fading away frm me but i tell myself there is no one else but you.

To be able to taste what God had given us before we see it is actually a blessing. In the name of christ, Amen.

2009-07-26T22:18:00.002+08:00

Service ended a bit earlier than usual tdy. Supposed to end at 4.30 but it ended at abt 4.10 instead. Was conducted by pastor Judah Smith frm city church in U.S.

Went for third service as usual cos the previous night came bk at abt 12+ after the concert. super tired after tht.

tmr's prelins and i think i shld be able to handle it with the aid of god's help. Amen.

2009-07-26T02:32:00.003+08:00

Hillsong concert was awesome!!!:D Reached Singapore Expo at abt 2.30 to meet keegen and the rest. Too bad I didn't attend the workshop ): but at least I still went for the concert which was simply AWESOME.

Nvr have I attended such a nice concert as hillsong. It was simply so great. We were spending most of the time inside jumping ard like crazy at the same time praising the Lord:D

Met new ppl too. Most of them or rather all of them, are frm Radical. Also my DARE group. Noticed that the ppl frm radical are super hyper and enthu. Concert started at 7 but doors were opened as early as 4. Luckily I reached there early cos there were like thousands of ppl who also attended the concert.

Met keegen first before meeting brian, joshua, and the rest. started queuing as early as 5. Cos don't want to miss out good seats although we spent most of the time inside standing and jumping which made my legs damn tired. But I don't mind since this is a once-in-a-year concert. Have to wait till next year then can attend agn.

Service tmr at 3. Bye.

2009-07-24T16:55:00.002+08:00

1 more day to hillsong concert. Woots. Gonna go there and enjoy myself.

Well, time flew quickly today and im happy because i hate long days. Maths was first before we had english in the library. After english was chemistry then geog and lastly chinese. chemistry seem to get easier and easier with each day that pass.

I don't know why either but perhaps it's because i was focused during lessons? guess so. Will be out for the whole afternoon tmr till late at night because of the concert.:D

2009-07-23T16:20:00.002+08:00

2 more days to Hillsong concert. Whoohooo. Can’t wait for this Saturday’s Hillsong concert. Coursework is finally done and I felt like as if I have just been granted freedom. Freedom of doing coursework of course.

Now it’s time to focus on theory. Target for F&N = A2. Nothing less than that. But must also focus on other subjects as well. Stupid computer made me not able to blog for the past few days.

Even this blog is done on MS words because of either my computer or blogger got smth wrong. Time flew so fast tdy tht every lesson seem so great. Even the most boring lesson-English, seem great tdy.

Had P.E after maths before it was time for recess. Not long after, had English in the library before having Chinese and chemistry. I felt my chemistry improved a bit. Haha.
Next week’s prelims and I think im quite ready for it thou not totally. But I know that nothing is impossible.

2009-07-19T20:46:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY, Sis(:
LOVE YOU ALWAYS..

Went fr church service tdy. Met Keegen at suntec at 1 before joining justin, alex, noah and the rest. Service started a bit late tdy thou. Was supposed to start at 2.30 but it was delayed till abt 3. As a result, service ended a bit ltr than usual.

Wanted to stay behind to study with justin, samuel, andrew and some other ppl but had to go back home fr my sis's bday celebration. sry guys fr leaving just like that and sry fr not turning up yestd. Had smth on yestd so cld not go.

You seem to be like the only one who possess the kind of personality tht I like. I can't find anyone who has the same qualities as you do. You are just simply unique, I would say. To be unable to find two ppl with the same kind of qualities just means how special tht person is and you seem to be like tht special one bcos i can't find anyone like you.

"Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them"
-Mark 11:24

2009-07-17T21:22:00.003+08:00

Reached home at about 4 plus after attending Physics remedial. Luckily it's Mr Yeo who took us and not Mr Prem. Mr yeo is definetly better than mr prem although he's not the HOD of science. At least Mr Yeo is patient.

Dead tired during lessons juz now. Felt like sleeping throughout the whole day but managed to keep myself awake. Time seem to pass so fast tdy. Even during English lesson, time passed so quickly. Maybe it was bcos i kept myself occupied by doing maths worksheet.

Well, after english stayed in class and then soon it was chem. Recapped on the topic of organic chem. Then it was time for geog. Received somemore worksheets tdy and in addition, have got weekend homework to do. Chinese was nothing but composition adn then after tht we had physics remedial before it was home sweet home.

Gonna spent almost the whole time out tmr. Bcos got many things to settle.

The time has not come. But I'm willing to wait till the time has come. Maybe you still haven't forgiven me yet. I understand as I knew tht i seriously hurt you alot and it would take time for you to overcome it...

2009-07-16T18:15:00.002+08:00

For the first time in my life, P.E. didn't seem to be so enjoyable as it was during the past. Everytime we had P.E., I would normally be full of energy. But somehow or rather, I juz felt like as if I had my energy drained away today.

I was so lifeless during and even after P.E. Something which even I myself can't explain. Perhaps it's because of the exams tht are around the corner or maybe it's because of...

Well, we got back our chemistry result today and although I scored 19/30, I wasn't contented with my result and I knew tht I could do better.

Sometimes, it's very difficult to read someone's mind. At times we might find it easy to read somebody's mind but there are also times when you totally don't know what the person is thinking about. He/she may be emotionally hurt due to some apparent reason but you juz can't tell it because tht person isn't showing any signs of being emotionally hurt.

You may seem happy and undisturbed, but I know deep inside your heart how hurt you are because of me. It's my actions tht left a hole in your heart. Something tht can nvr be re-written... ...

2009-07-15T20:19:00.003+08:00

26 days to prelims. 53 days to 'N' levels. Time is running real fast for me. Sooner or later, i'll be sitting for my N levels. Aim to get at least 15 points so that chances of progressing to secondary 5 would be higher.

Life is nothing now except for study. Top priority now is also study. Everthing to me is study. Until N levels are over, won't get the chance to relax. But for the sake of my future, i will do anything.

Many tests fr the past few days but i dun mind if it can help to improve on my studies. im more than willing to take the tests that are given.

"...the righteousness of faith speaks..."
-Romans 10:6

2009-07-13T22:40:00.004+08:00

Today was a relatively boring day. Had maths which we did worksheets then after which we had SS test on the conflict in Sri Lanka. We skipped Chinese today as we had to go for our quality of school survey.

Haha. The survey was like damn funny as in some of the questions that they asked. Some quetions i felt were repeated quesitons thou. But nevertheless, I took it seriously as I wanted to give an honest feedbac

I got back my chemistry test results today and surprisingly, I managed to pass although it's like only 10/20 ):
I must do better the next time round.

Finally, ending off with a verse again:

"Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ"
-Romans 1:7

2009-07-12T19:32:00.004+08:00

Went for church service today at suntec singapore. Service was awesome!!! Pastor Mark Ng was a really funny person during the service. He was supposed to be the chinese pastor but as Pastor Joseph Prince could not come, he had to take over.

During the service, pastor Mark taught many things like how God loved man and tht the world was created by Him even before man was created. Overall, it was a pleasant trip and i also got to meet people from the youth ministry, DARE.

I owe this all to my mentor, Caihua. She invited me to the church which i found very interesting. Now i finally know which is my true home church.

"Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous, it does not brag, and it is not proud. Love is not rude, is not selfish, and does not get upset with others. Love does not count up wrong things that have been done. Love takes no pleasure in evil but rejoices over the truth. Love patiently accepts all things. It always trusts, always hopes, and always endures.
Love never ends. There are gifts of prophecy, but they will be ended. There are gifts of speaking in different languages, but those gifts will stop."
-CORINTHIANS 13:14

2009-07-11T20:45:00.002+08:00

Everything i say seems to be make people angry. I guessed tht im not good wif words. idk why either. it's like one moment the person is happy and the next, the person would be left fuming mad wif me.

Whn can i learn how to talk to people without making them angry? i really dunno but im willing to learn how..

2009-07-10T19:51:00.003+08:00

Life is full of ups and downs. Some ppl lives are always up while others are unfortunately always down. People whose lives are always up normally dun face any problems in life. In other words, everthing seems to go in their favour. They get wad they want and live happily.

On the other hand, people whose lives are always down lead a very sad and meaningless life. They do not get wad they want and nothing goes in their favour. I think i'm in the middle bcos sometimes i do not get wad i want and things do not go my way as expected. While sometimes i also feel tht things go in my favour. Wadever it is, we still must thank God fr bringing us into this peaceful world. No matter wad happens in life, whether good or bad, God will always be there to answer our calls. That's why im happy wif the life im having nw. Although there are setbacks in my life, I know tht God is always beside me...

English lesson tdy seem to be quite interesting fr the first time. We did formal letter writing fr the whole entire two periods. Had Chem test tdy during chemistry followed by geog and then finally, Chinese. Nicholas Lim got sprayed wif whipped cream in school juz nw. Guessed he enjoyed it.haha.

Finally, i managed to upload pics into my blog. Took me soooo long before i finally mastered it. Here are two samples. More coming on Sun...

School was not as nice as it was when you are around. Without you, time seems to pass soooo slowly but with you around, time seems to fly quickly and lessons are interesting as ever...

Amen.

My laptop.

2009-07-09T20:20:00.004+08:00

School was great today. Although lessons were a bit boring today, at least i managed to keep myself awake throughout the day.

English lesson was superrrrr boring as usual juz like any other day. Almost fell alsleep during lesson time. Perhaps it's because of the P.E lesson tht made me sooo tired.

After English, we had chinese lesson which was a bit interesting i suppose. Then a few ppl had to go for their oral exams. As Mr Lim did not come to school today, we had a free period and surprisingly, the class was quiet throughout the whole period except for some girls...

32 days to prelims, 60 days to 'N' levels. It's either now or never at all. Either I make or break. But when there's god, nothing's impossible.

Amen.

2009-07-08T18:19:00.004+08:00

Am i dumb or what? Sometimes i really feel so...so dumb for doing stupid things tht nobody would ever imagine.

Went to school as usual today. lessons throughout the day was great and i learned many things tdy. Has physics first before heading to com lab fr F&N.

The worksheet mrs lee gave were quite hard but luckily i had my textbook wif me and wif the internet, i was able to do everything in two periods. Stayed in class during recess cos not in the mood to go down.

We were re-banded during english and i dunno whether shld i call myself lucky tht i managed to stay in mdm zanariah's class. I'd prefer mdm Suhailah teaching me. but since this is fate, then let it be...

I'm sorry if i stalked you yestd. but i juz want to tell you tht i did not look at you today, honestly. I know tht after wad happened, my reputation is hanging on a thread nw... so i juz hope tht by not bothering you or looking at you will help to improve my reputation and image of me on you...hope you understand what i'm trying to say.

Amen.

2009-07-07T19:04:00.002+08:00

Went to school as usual today. Lessons were great throughout the day thou. Had SS test on healthcare in Britain. It was quite a easy test as i understood what the sources were trying to say. Hope what i wrote would be correct.

Had english oral today after school at abt 3 pm. Almost screwed up the whole thing. Damn. Read the passage so quickly tht i ended up making at least 2~3 mistakes. Will surely score at least ard 30 or maybe less this time round due to the errors tht i made. I must do well fr both my paper 1 and 2 this time round to make up fr my oral mistakes.

I've come to realise tht i always do stupid things and then only regret it after it had happened. It's like shedding crocodile tears. In other words, there is no point in regreting as the thing had already taken place. If only i had not done it then things might not have turned out this way. i did smth real stupid juz now in school and thinking about it really makes me feel very guity. Worst still, is tht i have done it before but still never learn from it.

Why do i keep doing things tht are stupid? It's like a temptation from Saturn or maybe God is trying to test me whether i am able to resist temptation. If it's really a test, then i've failed it terribly by committing the same sin twice. Some ppl are given juz a chance to prove themselves while others are given many. I really hope tht i belong to the catergory of being given more than a chance. I'm not asking for 10 or 20 chances. Juz once more please...

I know that i followed you twice already. You gave me a chance before but i failed to treasure it. So now i really hope tht you'll give me juz a chance once more and i promise tht i will change for the better...

Amen.

2009-07-06T21:00:00.003+08:00

Spent the whole day at home during revision(: Weather was very cold tdy due to the rain. Hmm.. keep raining these few days. Dun tell me it's the monsoon season?

Anyway, tmr is my 'N' lvl eng oral and im pretty nervous now. Wonder how i would fair tmr. im the fourth person which means tht i can go home early after the oral.:D i'll pray to God fr me to do well tmr. Time is passing faster than wad i expected.

Downloaded a few songs tdy and then it's bk to revision.

35 days to prelims, 63 days to 'N' lvls. Amen.

Now or Never

2009-07-05T21:29:00.006+08:00

Didn't attend church service tdy cos had smth on): nvm i will go next week.

Woke up and then did self-revision.Somehow or rather, i feel tht time pass very slow tdy. Was waiting like hell loooog before it finally became noon. Didn't really have the mood to go out so stayed at home all day doing revision.

Finally after soo long, it's night fall. Was praying hard for tym to pass quickly cos during the night can get to do a lot of things. Oral is on tues but i'm already very tense right now...

Left with 1 day to oral, 36 days to prelims and 64 days to 'N' lvl. Must start to chiong already if not sure cannot make it. I must must make it to sec 5 for the sake of...

That's all.Amen.

2009-07-04T21:32:00.003+08:00

Finally after sooo many days, i'm back to blogging.

Went out to buy a suitable notebook cos my previous one had spoilt. Went wif dad to Plaza Sing at first but then the notebooks there are either too expensive or lousy. So headed down to courts. Again i wasn't satisfied.

In the end, we went to J8 and i finally got wad i wanted. Have been wanting a notebook badly for about 4 months as i needed to do my F&N coursework. Now tht i've finally got one, can start doing my coursework again. yea!

Time passed really fast during the past four months. Now it's already July. On tues, i'll be taking my 'N' lvl English oral exam. Didn't really do well for the previous English oral. Only scored 33/40. Was expecting at least 35 0r 36 but nvm. I'm confident that i will do well for the 'N' lvl English oral. Anyway the previous oral only counted in prelims so still got chance.(:

As of now, i'm left wif 2 days to my oral, 37 days to prelims and 65 days to 'N' lvl... No more tym to waste anymore. It's now or never...

2009-06-15T22:04:00.002+08:00

Not really in the mood to blog. Dunno why also. I've been feeling so down for the past few days.
Things have not been going my way. So yea. How I wished things were much better lyk the past...

But nvm. I believe that the day will come one day. all I need now is patience. Nothing more than patience.
Woke up at ard 9a.m tdy cos the previous night din't sleep well. Studied a while before heading to the library.
Went home at ard 1, lunched and then studied again. Studied fr abt 2~3 hours before heading out of the house again.

This time went to suntec instead. Went to get Hillsong United album. The songs are quite nice thou that's why i bought the album. Have decided to change my home church but shall not say it here yet...

Misery fills my heart
I dunno why
but the feeling is always there
I juz can't get rid of it

If only you cld be here nw
then I wouldn't need to suffer
I maybe wrong abt you
but I will change

I wished you were here nw
then perhaps I can explain
but you seem to have drifted away
away to somewhere afar

So please come bk
come bk to where you belong
so that I can see you again
and explain what I want to say...

14th June 2009

2009-06-14T21:02:00.002+08:00

Finally, I'm 16 years old. It feels great being 16 as you can get more freedom and do the things that you always wanted to do.(:

Woke up at ard 8.45. Showered and had breakfast before going out. Wanted to go to the PC show cos tdy is the last day. Surely got alot of discount. But then decided not to go cos not in the mood to go. Went to amk hub instead to get smth.

Reached home at ard noon. Had lunch before I started studying. No more time to watch TV or play soccer anymore. 'N' levels are coming, cannot always think of playing. From tdy onwards, am going to make sure that I mug every day till the end of my 'N' level paper. I'm already so back behind time.really.seriously.

Hope you see the email that I sent to you, Adora. I really want to be friends with you like the past when you would talk to me. I dun want to see you always ignoring me, treating me like I do not exist...

Sadness fills my heart whenever I see you
I know that I've got do to smth bout it
I cannot juz sit and wait fr miracles to happen
although I believe in miracles.

If only you could understand how I feel
then maybe you would noe what's wrong
I may have committed a sin
but I'm most willing to learn from it

If only you could give me a chance once more
I promise that I wouldn't hurt you anymore
It hurts to always see you so sad and listless
that sometimes I feel lyk crying my heart out.

So please forgive me, adora
and let us be friends again.

Friday, 12 June 2009

2009-06-12T21:13:00.003+08:00

Had nothing to do so decided to create a blog. Will get a blogskin soon but problem is, don't know how to change.wtf. But will try to learn.

Anyway, this is my first post and also the first time i'm blogging. Woke up at around 7.30a.m tdy although there wasn't school. Guess i'm too used to getting up early. Showered and had breakfast before going out to settle some things.

Saw Ms Sherrie Ng juz now while on the way to yio chu kang. Heard that she's getting married soon so i'm happy for her. If only she could be my geography teacher...nvm Mrs Audrey Koh is also quite a good teacher. Anyway, went out for 3 solid hours and by the time i reached home, my legs were like jelly ):

Tmr is my Bday but i don't plan to celebrate cos i've got a lot of things to settle tmr. my main focus now is to study real real hard for 'N' lvls. i was so sad when i saw my mid-year results therefore i told myself that with sheer hardwork and determination, nothing is impossible.

thanks mdm Su for your mativational talk. i will definely work hard to achieve what i want and that is, to get to sec 5 and to win Adora's heart.

i know it's going to be a tall order but like i said before, with sheer hardwork and determination, nothing is impossible. although the diamond necklace for Adora was somehow rejected, i'm not going to give up juz like that. I will keep trying and trying till i win your heart, Adora.

Adora, i'm going to prove to you that i really love you...Nobody can replace you in my heart. you're the one and only one that i will love forever...